I’m alive. It’s been quite awhile. My depression has been brutal but I’m finally climbing out of that black hole.
It’s been a hard one to take. My husband never understands my sadness and feeling of loss when a celebrity who I’ve been following for years dies. I try to get him to understand that these people have contributed something to my life that made it better in some way and that’s why it feels like I lost a friend or family member in some way.
I just can’t believe he’s gone.
Everything going on in America and the world has me on the fucking edge every day. I’m just completely mindfucked by all this hatred that seems to be showing up more often.
We adopted an 8 month-old chihuahua from the humane society last month. Little Luna is such a sweetie but was rescued from a puppy mill and she freaks the fuck out with other people and dogs. We’re definitely going to get a trainer to help us with that. She’ll be totally fine and chill but then she’ll see something outside or the doorbell will ring and she goes nuts. Luna Belle is a work in progress but so adorable and really smart.
The husband is still not sure what to think and one of our cats pissed on my husband when we were trying to introduce them so needless to say, it’s been slow going with Penny and she has been staying in the basement for the most part. Luna is so lovable once she warms up to people. It’s just getting that training in that I hope helps her.
The hummingbird had her last day of second grade today. They had a lot of snow days to make up. She turned 8 a few months ago and I still can’t believe it.
A family member has been going dick wild. She recently separated with her husband and I come to find out she’s been fucking some loser. Okay, this is where it gets so confusing. I also come to find out that she’s fucking her estranged husband’s former brother-in-law and the current partner of this family member’s estranged husband’s ex wife. Got that? Because I’m still so fucking confused.
I think she may have gone a little nutty because months ago she started taking diet pills that her doctor prescribed which is essentially speed. Now, she seems to have gained back some confidence with her weight loss. To that, I told my mom this family member needs to eat a sandwich and quit fucking other people. This whole thing has caused a big rumble in the small town she lives in and has been giving the family several what the fucks?!!
I’ve had to make myself stop watching the news since it sends me into a panic so I’ve been getting my news by watching Trevor Noah on The Daily Show. It makes the news easier to bear with the damn fine Trevor Noah.