I don’t know if it’s just me but I always get depressed around my birthday. And it’s not that I feel a little sad because I’m a year older. It’s more like Holy Shit! I’m a year older!!!! Aggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!! I spent a good chunk of my birthday on Sunday in bed because my sinuses are being a pain in the ass. I see my new ENT doctor tomorrow morning and I expect nothing less than a morphine drip for the pain I’m in.
It would really lift my spirits if Mark Ruffalo and Ryan Gosling could help administer the morphine. Or one of them could just lay on the bed with me. What? I’m a married woman so I wouldn’t do that. Okay, yes, I totally would.
It’s Wednesday so that means I ramble on about what’s been going on the past week. Let’s get rolling…
Sick kitties – Our cat Maisy and our little kitten Penny are sick. Maisy’s on the mend but Penny has the worst of it and it’s breaking my heart. We took them to the vet and she told us they have an upper respiratory infection. With Penny, her eyes are watering and red rimmed. Both of them are sneezing like crazy.
The other night Maisy was laying on one side of the bed and Penny was on the other side and they were both sneezing. It sounded like it was in stereo.
Preschool Tour – Tomorrow afternoon we’re going on a preschool tour. I have mommy guilt for putting the little hummingbird in preschool a few days a week but I’m trying to convince myself that this will be really good for her and for me.
I also have some mommy guilt because I’m starting to get excited about it. Being a stay at home mom is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I’ve always needed some space and as much as I love the hummingbird, I rarely get any time to myself. I make her breakfast, clean up, get her snacks, clean up, make her lunch, clean up, listen to The Wheels on the Bus and If You’re Happy and You Know It over and over while doing silly dances with her around the house, do laundry, hope that she takes a nap or at least has some quiet time in her room, change diapers (although I’m trying to get her used to the big girl potty), watch crazy ass cartoons, try to keep up with her and so on, all while getting maybe just a few minutes to sit down. Zzzzzzzzz.
Depression and anxiety – While going to see my therapist once a week has been helping, my depression and anxiety have been kicking my ass again. My doctor upped both my anti-depressant and anti-anxiety meds but I’m not feeling much of a change yet. I think some of it has to do with this time of year. It’s not only the cold and shorter days but the people who I love who are no longer here.
And on that
depressing note, here is a must see movie….
Children Of Men – This movie with Clive Owen and Michael Caine will rock your socks off. The director, Alfonso Cuarón, is brilliant. I’ve seen this movie countless times because the acting, plot, directing, and cinematography are amazing. There are also some long shots and the one towards the end blows me away, pun intented.
It’s the year 2027 and women can no longer get pregnant. A baby hasn’t been born for the past 18 years and the world is facing extinction. Clive Owen as Theo becomes a reluctant hero. Since I don’t want to add any spoilers, as Forrest Gump would say…. That’s all I have to say about that. The movie is really incredible and it sucked me in, in less than three minutes.