When the little hummingbird had been home a week, I thought I was going to lose my mind from lack of sleep. When she was down for her morning nap, I climbed into bed and started crying. I was trying to figure out what in the hell I was doing wrong as a mom to have her cry so much.
I was thinking of all the people who have a baby and a few days later say motherhood is the best thing ever and my life is complete now. I thought what the fuck because I was far from feeling that way. I knew I loved my daughter but at that moment, I just wanted to walk out the front door.
I felt so ashamed that I had been waiting years to have a baby and now that she was here, I wanted to have some peace and quiet and not be bothered by a crying baby who wouldn’t let me get more than 2 hours of sleep at a time.
It took some time to really feel like a mom and fall in love with my daughter.
Have you ever felt ashamed or guilty because of how you felt about your child? Did you keep it to yourself or did you share your feelings with someone? And don’t worry, this is a safe place to vent and not be criticized. xx