Writer’s Workshop: Excuse me, there’s a baby in your uterus.

This is part of Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop. I picked “share a moment when you felt overwhelmed.”

Mama’s Losin’ It
In June of 2008, my husband and I, who were married for nearly 13 years, were living in Arlington, VA and I went in for my yearly exam. We had been disagreeing for years about when to start a family. I had been ready for years but my husband seemed terrified about the subject of babies.

The doctor I went to see for my yearly pap ended up writing a prescription for the wrong birth control which I didn’t notice until I was in the parking lot. I thought I would simply run back into the clinic to get it changed but when I went back, the doctor was already with another patient.

I left my info and told the receptionist what the problem was and thought it would be straightened out soon. Wrong. I never heard from the doctor. I even went to the clinic to speak with someone to no avail. The whole time I was thinking I just want my damn birth control, not meth, and this was crazy to go through all of this.

Then I was told I needed to come in for another exam so the doctor could stick her hand up my hoo-ha and do another pap smear even though I had already gotten the results from the one a few weeks prior and it was clear. I would explain that I’ve done this less that a month ago and just needed the correct prescription.

She had written a prescription for a birth control pill that wasn’t anything like what I’ve been taking so I was worried about how it would affect me since I’ve learned over the years that I need to be on a low dose of birth control or else I become like a pissed off Christian Bale on the set of Terminator 3 except my meltdown doesn’t become viral or get a cool song remix.

After calling several times, going to the clinic, leaving messages, and all of that good stuff, I thought eff it. I know obviously by not being on birth control my chances of getting pregnant became sky-high but my hubby knew the dilemma I was in so we used other forms of birth control.

Wait a sec, this just in….it didn’t work…obviously.

The subtle signs were there but I really didn’t think anything of it. The biggest giveaway should have been when I went downstairs from our 18th floor apartment to the little convenience store on the first floor and instead of getting something with chocolate, I had this intense craving for something lemony which has never happened seeing as how I’m a chocoholic.

The physical symptoms I was having were very close to when I get my period so again, I didn’t think anything of it. Soon after I had to drive my hubby to the Naval Hospital in Bethesda because he had broken his foot and was finally getting surgery on it. There I was driving on the freeway and I had the worst nausea. I ended up having to pull over since I got so sick. I blamed it on nerves because of my husband’s surgery.

Normally I have the nose of a dog but my sense of smell went up tremendously. Also, just a week before my husband’s foot surgery, we went to a music festival in Maryland and while it was awesome, I was beyond exhausted which was another sign…..ding, ding, ding.

A few weeks later in September I remember sitting in the living room and all of these subtle signs finally came together for me. I knew I had a pregnancy test somewhere so I ripped through my bathroom cabinets and finally found it.

I peed on the stick and it was positive within seconds. I was in total shock even though it shouldn’t have been that surprising. So, I convinced myself the pregnancy test was “broken”, ha, and ran across the street to CVS where I got a 2 pack of one brand and a 2 pack of a different one. I rushed back home and all were positive.

Then I went to the grocery store down the street because holy hell in a hot pocket, all of these tests had to have been broken because of some kind of conspiracy, right?

I peed some more and those were positive too.

Yes, I know how babies are made but it was the suprise of my life. I was excited and so overwhelmed during that moment. The most I’ve ever been.

When my husband came home from work that day, I was going to act cool about it and wait to tell him but that lasted all of 2 seconds. He was really shocked to say the least. Even after I went to take a blood test the next day, he still wasn’t convinced.

It wasn’t until 2 weeks later when I went in for my first ultrasound and we saw the hummingbird that it really hit us both.

There was another photo we got on that first visit and I swear it looks like she’s tap dancing. When I think about it now and how she can’t sit still for even a minute, she probably was tap dancing in my uterus.

After the first doctor’s visit, my hubby really seemed to come around and once she was born, it was love at first cry…for all of us. Then just a day after she was born, she was rushed to the NICU and our lives were changed even more.

The feelings I have when I think about her 21 days in the NICU are still so fresh in my mind, even after 2 1/2 years. We were in the dark most of the time when it came to her issue with hypoglycemia (that was resolved when she was 6 weeks old) which was really frustrating and also very overwhelming. I was pretty much like my daughter would be…fine one minute, crying the next, then fine again.

Over three years later, I’m amazed and so thankful and exhausted at how she’s such a free-spirited, sweet, animated and theatrical, and oh my gawd she never stops moving, ever entergetic little girl who is poking me in the back and saying in a whisper, mahmeee, mahmeee, mahmee as I write this.

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14 Responses to Writer’s Workshop: Excuse me, there’s a baby in your uterus.

  1. Dani G October 4, 2012 at 04:10 #

    Love the pic of the loads of preg tests. You know, just to be SURE!
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  2. kat October 4, 2012 at 04:14 #

    yep, that moment you find out you are pregnant is certainly overwhelming! When I told my husband we were pregnant for the second time he literally fell onto the couch and didn’t move for 5 minute! It changes your life but only for the better!
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  3. NatteringNic October 4, 2012 at 04:39 #

    That’s a great story! Love the pee stick pic…wish I had done the same with my positives!
    *clickin in from mamakat*
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  4. Jen October 4, 2012 at 05:53 #

    Ok, I so totally loved this story. I was shocked when I got pregnant with my oldest. I was told I was not supposed to get pregnant and there I was.

  5. Amy October 4, 2012 at 06:57 #

    Oh my lol. What a sweet story. I have a son who was conceived while I had an IUD in place…..99% positive my butt!!! And I blame, I mean credit, that same son for my daughter lol, him and his little prayers for a sister lol.
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  6. Kim@Co-Pilot Mom October 4, 2012 at 07:15 #

    What a great story. I remember feeling overwhelmed when we discovered that I was pregnant the first time. Somehow, you just know that your whole world is about to change.
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  7. Contemporary Troubadour October 4, 2012 at 08:20 #

    I came over from Mama Kat’s :). Still laughing about the “broken” pregnancy tests — we were trying to get pregnant when I took mine, but I was still so unconvinced that it was positive that I let the stick sit on the counter for days until the battery died and took the “yes” off the little screen. And then I was afraid to throw the thing away until we’d seen the confirmation ultrasound (as if a doctor would use that thing to run further testing should there NOT be a baby visible …)
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  8. Jessica B October 4, 2012 at 08:54 #

    This is great… I so remember the excitement and disbelief when I found out that I was pregnant. Each time! 🙂

  9. Psychobabbler October 4, 2012 at 08:54 #

    Oh my goodness I loved this post! Thank you so much for putting it up on the link! I’m a little new to this and keep coming across more blogs I want to follow, I don’t have enough time in my life for my own! It is like an addiction! So much for getting back into reading books, I will be following blogs instead!

  10. Jessica October 4, 2012 at 09:48 #

    Wow, I would love for that to happen to me. I always turn into Maleficent when we are TTC and always wished it would come effortlessly to me.
    Although, when you aren’t planning it, it would be stressful too.
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  11. Angie October 4, 2012 at 11:21 #

    That is such a cute story!
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  12. Tonya October 4, 2012 at 11:58 #

    Oh, what a wonderful story! I love the photo of all the pregnancy tests. When I got my first positive EPT I thought, “well, that can’t be right”. I also took two more.

    When it comes to making babies, there is nothing quite as real as seeing them on the u/s screen.

    Stopping by from Mama Kat’s!
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  13. Stacie @ Snaps and Bits October 4, 2012 at 14:33 #

    Aw, very sweet and she’s beautiful!
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  14. monica October 4, 2012 at 18:22 #

    fabulous post. best post TITLE. EVER.
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