I have been so fucking depressed.
My depression has flared up like Paris Hilton’s STD’s.
You’re very welcome for the image that is now in your head. I aim to please.
I haven’t been able to pull myself away from the television because I’m waiting for answers that eventually come and when they do, there are even more questions so I stay tuned and watch more news which makes me more depressed and I get more answers which creates more questions.
This whole thing has been a clusterfuck of madness.
I know. Turn off the fucking television. I have been. And throwing myself into Joaquin Phoenix movies.
I had such a crush on him and his older brother, River, when I was really young. Back when Joaquin was known as Leaf.
Last Friday I got out the Walk The Line DVD (Reese Witherspoon aka Laura Jeanne Poon, what the fuck, girl?) and now I can’t get enough JP.
For me at least, Joaquin Phoenix has been like comfort food for my eyes. Seeing him reminds me of my childhood, where the only worries I had were…. uhhhh……… ummmmm.
I honestly haven’t paid much attention to the guy in years, with the exception of Walk The Line, but seriously, the guy knows what the fuck he’s doing.
I’ve been able to clear my head for a few hours and think of nothing else… kinda like how a Kardashian goes through life… and it’s been a nice escape.
If he’s not your thing, no biggie. But if you haven’t seen Inventing The Abbotts before, that movie is so good. Everyone in that film is amazing.
So, yeah, I’ve obviously been very productive the past week. Ha!
I have so many things swirling around in my head that I want to write about but when I try, poof, that shit is gone from my head. I’m finally coming around though. But damn, depression really got me good during this round.
The bright side has been our upcoming move to coastal Maine in June. I drank the kool-aid and now I’m giddy as fuck about moving there. I love California but I’m so ready for a change.
I’ve recently been learning all I can about screenwriting… I never saw that one coming… okay, maybe I did a little… and have been looking for anything resembling a film school where we’ll be moving.
How awesome would it be to write a masterpiece like Showgirls?! Okay, I won’t diss that movie too much seeing as how it’s comedy gold and whenever I watch it on television I think “damn, at least things aren’t as bad as this movie”.
So, Wednesday, thank you for not being as bad as Showgirls. Let’s keep it that way.
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you’re not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we’re different tonight
Tonight, so bright