The loss.

I would like to thank everyone for your kind and thoughtful words after my miscarriage. It’s been tough. I see pregnant women and my heart still aches.

I miss the lil’ peanut so much that I can’t even put it into words.

I’ll be honest. While I’m excited to try again for a little one, I’m also terrified. I really don’t think I can deal with another loss.

I miss the baby so much. I miss being pregnant. I miss planning the future with another child. I miss the fluttering I was feeling when I was pregnant.

I miss the child that will never be.

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14 Responses to The loss.

  1. siggiofmaine September 7, 2013 at 01:55 #

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

    Having been in your shoes, I can tell you, if you are like me,
    you will always wonder, “what If”, but you will have the strength
    to love another baby. Know that I care and wish you peace
    of heart and soul.

    Peace
    Siggi
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    • Elle September 7, 2013 at 14:15 #

      Thank you so much, Siggi. xx

  2. Erin Ahrens September 7, 2013 at 05:37 #

    I hope you find healing. I am so sorry. You have truly been through so much in the past few months. Hopefully, this move, the movers didn’t find and penile shaped objects. I read your blog religiously. It is the only one I follow, regularly. Your daughter is fun to watch grow up. Almost five? Five seemed so old when I got there with my migits. Ten is scaring the heck out of me. That will be too close to teenage years for my level of comfort. I have some time with an almost seven and eight year old. Those early years dragged on for me, but since five, things are moving faster than I would like. Hopefully, you will be able to slow the hands of time with a successful pregnancy, when you are ready. Thinking good thoughts ;o) EA

    • Elle September 7, 2013 at 14:19 #

      Haha, Erin! I actually hid the sex toys this time around. I can’t thank you enough for reading my ramblings.

      7 and 8 yo. Wow, you need a vacay. :I bow down to you. 🙂 x
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  3. Christa September 7, 2013 at 09:59 #

    I wrote a post called MIscarriage Means Losing an Imagined Future because it really is like that. You can see it, feel it – it’s real. And then poof, it’s like what the next 18 years would have been is gone. SO hard.
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    • Elle September 7, 2013 at 14:22 #

      Hi Christa! I feel like the loss isn’t weighing on my mind as much after a few months. I mean it is but I’m starting to feel more normal again, whatever the hell normal is. 😉

      I’m really dreading when I was due… feb 28th 2014.That’s going to be rough.
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  4. Anja September 7, 2013 at 14:02 #

    With time comes healing. The loss will always be there but you will heal. 🙂 I don’t know why these things happen, but keep moving forward. Time goes by so fast and your sweet hummingbird will be blossoming into a beautiful woman. Cherish the time now….I wish I could go back and re-live those younger years now that mine are almost out of my home.
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    • Elle September 7, 2013 at 14:23 #

      Thank you, Anja. Very wise words!

      Much love to you!

  5. monica September 7, 2013 at 14:32 #

    aw! so painful. had a miscarriage between 3 and 4 and I, too, was scared of trying again. my prayers go out to you. many blessings to you and I hope that the future holds greatness. xoxo
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    • Elle September 7, 2013 at 21:40 #

      Thank you, Monica. I’m so sorry that you experienced the loss of a baby. Much love… xx

  6. Poppy September 8, 2013 at 21:15 #

    Much, much love.
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    • Elle September 9, 2013 at 10:30 #

      Thank you. Poppy. xoxo

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