I started a blog a while back called Anonymous Parent but decided to incorporate it into this blog. It is absolutely confidential. Completely anonymous. If you would like to share your story, please go here, Anonymous Parent.
This story comes from “Sylvia”. Let’s give her the support she needs.
I think about divorcing my husband every day. Sometimes multiple times a day. We have two amazing kiddos and they are the only thing holding me to him at this point.
My parents have been married for over 30 years and I don’t want to let them down.
But the real reason I won’t divorce him is because I’m terrified he’ll kill me if I try to leave.
He’s never hit me or been physically abusive, but he’s talked about killing other people and made references to getting rid of me if I take his kids away.
He seems to love me, but spends most of his time being extremely angry. I walk in the door from work and almost every day I am met with a tirade of angry words and yelling. It’s getting so exhausting.
I don’t know what to do with him or myself, and I just want to protect my kids from him. I am so tired. Sooo tired.
I work full time and go to school at night, once a week, and he acts like that time is my “rest time” from the kids.
If I try to take a day away to just be by myself and think, he freaks out and tells me I’m selfish.
He has no coping mechanisms other than drinking and yelling. I just want to take my kids and RUN AWAY! But I won’t.