Baby boy’s amnio came back and yes, it is positive for down syndrome. Not gonna lie, these past few weeks have been such a mindfuck. Honestly, my first thought when I found out that he has Ds is that I didn’t want this baby.
I know, it’s horrible but when you find out your pregnant and have that first ultrasound where you see your little one, usually the last thing on your mind is that something could be wrong. Months went by and everything being seen looked great on the ultrasounds until they did a screening test.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been in severe panic mode. Always so full of anxiety, waking up in the middle of the night and feeling like my heart would explode because of anxiety attacks.
Then, over the weekend, my husband and I really talked about it and had long discussions about our little boy. We talked and talked and talked and talked and came to the realization that our baby bird will be so loved and no matter what is thrown at us because of Ds, we can’t wait to have this beautiful baby in our lives.
Of course, we’re still terrified of the unknown but the panic and anxiety is starting to subside and I’m excited for our new addition to arrive.
I want to thank all of you for your love and support with this. You guys are amazing! xxoo