The little hummingbird will be turning 6 next month. 6!! So, recently I’ve been thinking more about my past experiences with her and each stage she’s gone through up until now.
Did I mention she’ll be 6 soon? 6! What the hell?! The time really does go by way too fast. Although, at the same time, it can feel like it’s going by way. too. slow.
Then BAM! Your kid seems to grow overnight.
Babyhood – Looking back, I wish I paid much more attention. Or maybe it’s the exhaustion that makes this age a blur. I wish I wasn’t so hard on myself and the fact that I always compared myself to other moms.
The new mothers that would say motherhood is “the best thing ever” while I would have plenty of moments where I would cry or feel depressed and overwhelmed.
The new mothers that seemed to make it look so easy and effortless while I was frazzled.
No matter how much I tried to prepare myself when it came to being a parent, in reality it was learning as I go. It’s still like that and probably always will be.
Once you feel like you have this shit down, the fruit of your loins won’t get the memo and will change things up no matter how old they are.
Your baby is sleeping through the night? Maybe not in a few weeks.
Your baby loves a specific food? Ha! That may be all they want but out of nowhere, they’ll be like nope, no way, not gonna eat it.
Sleep – Zombies are more alert than parents who have a newborn.
Sanity – You’re running on adrenaline and have every single emotion there is. Sanity is unlikely at this age.
Lows – Being sleep-deprived, not sleeping, lack of sleep, crazy hormones.
Highs – Having it sink in that you created a little human, the love that develops, the first smile, the first everything.
Unwanted advice that made me want to stab everyone that would tell me this – “Sleep when the baby sleeps.” Much easier said than done. When my child would actually sleep, I had shit to do. Things like endless laundry, trying to finally eat at the end of the day as fast as possible and discovering that I can shove half an El Monterey bean and cheese burrito in my mouth. Taking a fast shower. Staring at my newborn while she slept, despite having shit to do. Being able to have 5 seconds to pee.
This age was a lot harder for me than I thought it would be. Being in charge of a tiny, helpless baby can be stressful and you may feel like it won’t get easier. Okay, so it may never be easy but they grow and as cliché as this is, you learn to expect the unexpected.